2nd video of me and my bebe Star! Nothing much to see here, just wanna wish you all a good night :)
Always on the lookout for some bokeh.
It has been months since someone told me that, but it still stands as the nicest thing anyone has ever told me. To the point that I just had to put it up on the blog.
I’ve realized that when I’m talking to different people, restraining certain emotions and characteristics had become normal for me. Not that I’m fake or pretentious, it’s just that through time I’ve been clearly aware that the hundred percent me isn’t acceptable to everybody.
However when I found out that someone was out there who appreciated me for being me, my soul wept. After so long my lame jokes and stories are now being heard. I can be miserably sad, effervescently happy or immensely annoying without being stopped. I can show what I feel without the fear of being rejected.
For the first time in forever, my frozen heart can finally let it go.
Hallo. The electricity has been in and out lately because of the recent typhoon Glenda. Hence here I am, spamming your dashboards with.. well.. photos.
I’ve been taking so much pictures with my webcam recently because 1) there’s no internet (until now) and 2) I just downloaded this webcam software which lets me adjust the composition, add filters, put on props, write, take videos and so much more. It’s really coolbeans. Photo samples are above! Weee
Also, I’m trying to write an about page for the blog. So.. is there anything crazy you’d want to know about me?
Truth be told, my sadness had been consuming so much of me lately that I tend to hate everything that comes in my way. So tonight, I’m basically going to try to transform my way of thinking and (hopefully) evolve into someone better.
I don’t really know the exact mechanics of The Grateful Project but I can recall someone who did this before which started it with the line..
Today, I am grateful for:
I think you’ll be seeing a post like this often. Especially when I’m at the lowest point of my emotions. It helps me a lot, I can feel it. And if you happen to know other cool challenges, please don’t hesitate to tag me up. I’ll appreciate it a lot.
Now that I’ve actually finished writing up the things and people I am grateful for, they make me look forward into living another day. I’m happy, I hope you are too.
Being left out feels awful, I know. But after a while I thought.. man, I’m too young to be this empty.
Actually it’s good that you’re prone to more risks and dangers. It means you’re growing. And the best way to deal with your fears is probably to accept it. If you fail, then fine, go get up your feet and stand once again. That time you won’t be afraid anymore because you can now say you’ve been there, and you’re not going to do the same mistake all over again.
Dear, I suggest make time with yourself. Go buy some ice cream or stroll out alone in a park, and go watch a movie without having to share your popcorn. Possibilities are endless. I’m saying you this because learning how to enjoy living without depending you’re happiness on anyone is basically the first step to livin’ da lyf.
Just as Earl Nightingale said, “We become what we think about.” so instead of worrying about your fears, go think of ways on how to outsmart them. After which, you’ll find out that “Everything you ever wanted is on the other side of fear.” (by George Addair). Finally, I’ll leave you with a Mark Twain: “Explore. Dream. Discover.”.
You’re going to be a woman soon. Better be a woman of badassery than boring.
If, in any case you would want to talk about this more, you know where to reach me :)
For crying out loud
One of the main reasons why I can’t sleep recently is because one of my wisdom teeth lack attention. If I can hear it speak right now it would probably say “Yo. My name’s wisey toothey. And I’m peeking. Ya feel me? What? No? What about now? Still no? What? Can’t hear you human! ha ha ha”
I had always been stubborn at taking my medicines, but tonight, I gave in. I was torn between paracetamol and aspirin. Judging by previous knowledge I know that paracetamol is for feverish colds and flu, while aspirin is for headache and period pains. I asked my mom for advice, and she told me to take the paracetamol. I couldn’t stand it anymore so I took the paracetamol then and there.
After fifteen minutes, not much had changed. I’m very impatient, I know. So I did a little reading online to know if I took the right tablet. The first few results just blabber about anti-inflammatory properties, so I searched for a different keyword. Apparently, this site says that the best painkiller for toothaches is codeine, which isn’t very helpful because I don’t have any of those right now. I came across this afterwards and read people suggesting ibuprofen over paracetamol because ibuprofen is basically anti-inflammatory. There’s also this one guy who never found paracetamol helpful and prefers soluble aspirin more. At that point sorta cried an ‘oh-no’ in my head. However, this saved me from my worries. A person with username De Vizio, DMD, answered on behalf of Colgate. He said that if someone is experiencing toothache, ibuprofen or acetaminophen can help ease discomfort. Aspirin against the gums near the toothache, since this may burn the gum tissue.
I told my dentist about this insane pain at my molars about a month ago already. But she was just “Oh, don’t worry. Your wisdom teeth are just growing. You can take painkillers if you like.”
I hope she had been more specific. I crey.